x-mas present

The last couple of years I used to write poems on x-mas, and send them to friends in short messages(sms). This year I have sent the wrong "version" (0.69) of my x-mas letter, so the poem didn't came to the ppl... and somehow I had a bad mood most propably, cause I wasn't able to do the same in Hungarian and Slovakian... So I will share mz verse here anyway. It is very amateur, as I used to say the though is what counts :)

I used to write in x-mas time
a poem or two for those I like
So I send here with all that's dear
My best wishes for your next year

The sun should shine, the rain should fall
Good people come and bad should go
Smile a lot, enjoy your time
Remember the words: "This life is mine"

And remember too, the wise mans clue:
"Make people happy, it comes back to you!"

Thomas Barrett - The Pentagon's new map for war and peace

A new way of thinking on war for me. Not really a surprising idea, the problem is I didn't hear about it, yet. Wars in the past were started to get territories, usually the main powers were accepting the changes on the world maps, and if some citizens didn't agree, then they were executed... Well we are trying to establish a more "democratic" world in the last century, which means, that the citizens who disagree with the new situation shouldn't be butchered without consequences. But on the other hand we want as few as possible resistance on the conquered territories.
I think the sentence, which describes the presentation the best is:
"Don't plan for the war, until you plan for peace."
The presentator enforces the creation of a new force in the US army, which would specialize on "peacekeeping", it should be an open platform, which means that it should after a while be based on international cooperation rather then a US specialized force. The goal of the force should be - gaining trust, help at the rebuilding phase and give the possibility for a clean start. Anyway, the idea, how I understood it, sounds good, has of course it's possibilities in misusing, but generally looks fine for a positive non-zero outcome. (I will try to not forget and write on the non-zero outcomes another blog entry)

Following the trend - Names

I just read an article, that a lot of people from the USA are googling (googling - should be already acknowledged as a word... at least on the google domain, where also this site belongs to) out their own name and information about their friends. So I though I will do the same and googled a bit:

1.) www.peterhajdu.com - according to this site, he was a famous accordion player. Died just in 2006. He was fleeing from Hungary Revolution in 1956 (which was then supressed by the soviets. I used to hear in my hometown, that if at that time the western countries would have answered Hungary's call for freedom, it could have been successful. But that is not the way things used to work in our society, not then and neither after that).

"October 23, 1956, is a day that will live forever in the annals of free men and nations. It was a day of courage, conscience and triumph. No other day since history began has shown more clearly the eternal unquenchability of man's desire to be free, whatever the odds against success, whatever the sacrifice required." - John F. Kennedy, on the first anniversary of the Hungarian Revolution.

On the above mentioned site it is also able to hear some of his music, though it was converted from LPs so the quality is not always good.

Through him I got also to another site: http://web.axelero.hu/nadori2/1045/index.html

A selection of Hungarian music from the 60's (you can here teh actual songs when you click on the numbers) Studio 11 can be heard also today in the Hungarian Radio Statin Kossuth. Illes reunited a few years ago and had a huge success. Metro is told as one of the legends of its time, many of the musicians from Metro then formed afterwards one of (my oppinion) Hungaries best bands of all times - LGT. And the last one Kóos János - if you say to a Hungarian person - Kislány a zongoránál (small girl at the piano) then everyone will know who you mean. This is a different song from him.

2.) The second person is a now living Hungarian TV show host. Though he has never achieved anything I would consider worth to mention.

3.)
http://fr.wikipedia.org/wiki/P%C3%A9ter_Hajd%C3%BA
hard to understand when it is just so little written down about him + that it is in French... Though seems like a linguistic researcher.
http://www.lib.pte.hu/kulongyujtemenyek/hh-eng.htmFound another link. According to the English article on the university of Pécs he was working mostly on the field of Finno-Ugric relationships and linguistics. This is also a topic near to me, though I enjoy more the science around the coexistence of different nations, religions and cultures.

The Stairways To Heaven Are Opened Again

Led Zeppelin Concert in London! Hopefully this means that a tour will also start sooner... :) It goes back a few years when I discovered this band, though we had a lot of CDs home from them. My father bought them.

I was listening to the Remasters album over and over again. Whole Lotta Love, Stairways To Heaven, Dazed And Confused, Achilles Last Stand. I can't say with words what I felt when I was listening to these and a lot other songs, I just enjoyed them. And a possibility to hear it life would be a dream come true.

A guy who taped some songs uploaded Stairways To Heaven on youtube. His words are more then motivating for me.
"To viewers who were not at the concert, grown men who have come from 5,000 miles/km away to be squeezed against each other at the urinals, were looking at each other, trying to receive another confirmation that they really were at this surreal gathering of the quarter century ...."

Some other reviews found on the BBC site!

Links I have found from this concert:

Good Times, Bad Times
Stairway to Heaven
Black Dog
The Song Remains The Same

MANDATORY WATCHING!!!

The woman in the movie below talks about the steps getting to a dictatorship like Hitlers Germany and Stalins Soviet Union. She also compares the happenings to what happens now in the USA. I do not have the information verified showed in this clip. None of it. Anyway it is interesting to hear.



A Czech article I found this video in: Senátní návrh zákona č. 1955 kriminalizující názory, blogy, knihy a svobodu projevu vůbec po celé Americe
And look for articles/blogs about: "The Violent Radicalization and Homegrown Terrorism Prevention Act". This is my best lead for now. Looks like a quite radical law...
I don't know for sure where to look for government stuff in the USA, but I think this is the right spot to read what it is all about: http://thomas.loc.gov/cgi-bin/query/D?c110:1:./temp/~c1108XuTgZ::

Akeboshi

I will once in a while upload song texts which I hear in different moods. As music is not only the instruments playing (OK, this time I include into instruments also a PC, though won't do it again most probably), but there are a few songs, interprets, which caught my attention with their lyrics.

Akeboshi is the first artist I want to introduce. A Japanese pop and folk singer. What amazes me in his art is a very simple melody which I think it is unique in his way. The most charismatic details in his performance is his voice and the acoustic guitar or piano. Though it was a song with an English text that caught my attention most of his songs are in Japanese never the less they are more then enjoyable.

The song caught me because I believe it has pearls of wisdom I can find myself in or would like to live according to. That's all.
I think it is a great motivational song. The simple rule of fight while you can and don't look back.

"Motivate your Anger..." - I try to control my emotions in almost every second of my life. It makes me look like a neutral person, who does not have a lot of emotions. I enjoy the fact that it makes me have a better overview of the situation.

"Sneakin' out the classroom, by the back door
A man railed at me twice, though
But i didn't care
Waiting is wasting, for people like me"
- is close to my heart because of my experience in a non-for-profit organization. Searching for opportunities, not waiting for them. This is my interpretation.

"Reflections of fear make shadows of nothing" is one of my favorite lines, as it also describes my thinking. And very often I know I would be off much better doing the think I want to do, and I still don't.

"You Still are blind if you see winding road
'Cos there's always a straight way to the point you see"
- for me this means that when you have a goal then don't distract your attention with thinks you must not do.

Akeboshi's popularity all around the world came thanks to the anime series Naruto (who knows a bit about anime has for sure heard about this serial). In the ending of the first episodes the first two verses of Wind were played. Thats exactly where he caught my attention also.

At the end of the article, there will be links on his songs, which were used on different "fun-art" videos.

Wind lyrics

Cultivate your hunger, before you idealize
Motivate your Anger, to make them all realize
Climbing the mountain, never coming down
break into the contents, never falling down

My knee is still shaking like i was twelve
Sneakin' out the classroom, by the back door
A man railed at me twice, though
But i didn't care
Waiting is wasting, for people like me

Don't try to live so wise,
Don't cry 'cos your so right
Don't dry, with fakes or fears
'cos you will hate yourself in the end

Don't try to live so wise,
Don't cry 'cos your so right
Don't dry, with fakes or fears,
'cos you will hate yourself in the end

You say dream the dream
I ain't gonna play the fool anymore
You say 'cos i still got my soul

Take your time baby
Your blood needs slowin'down
Breach your soul to reach yourself, before you gloom
Reflections of fear make shadows of nothing
-shadow of nothing-

You Still are blind if you see winding road
'Cos there's always a straight way to the point you see

Don't try to live so wise
Don't cry, 'cos your so right
Don't dry, with fakes or fears
'Cos you will hate yourself in the end

Don't try to live so wise
Don't cry 'cos your so right
Don't dry with fakes or fears
'Cos you will hate yourself in the end

Don't try to live so wise
Don't cry 'cos your so right
Don't dry with fakes or fears
'Cos you will hate yourself in the end

'Cos you will hate yourself in the end
'Cos you will hate yourself in the end
'Cos you will hate yourself in the end

Wind
Rusty Lance
A Nine Days Wonder
Night And Day
Yellow Moon

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update 2009.07.05:
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I found the translation for Haikyo no Sofa (the translation is in the comments):
This is a rainy city, formerly a beautiful and legendary port city
Now ruins stand here, and it overflows with people that pester you for change

In a house where a student with different colored skin lives
Is where I've settled down; Only half a year has passed since that rainy day
I walked on because of the stubborn sound of the bell
I'll find us on a stone-paved road

Walking in the rain I've been told today
never wanna see you again.
I feel like I'm still wet in this tiny room
why should I pretend to be high.
I walk to Green Fish to listen to the sound of silence.
A man who plays the harp gently shakes my hand
and he leads me in to the story of him.

I see you shouting and yelling and struggling
But I can't hear your voice
I see you shouting and yelling and struggling
But I can't feel the same

I headed up ahead for a cafe on the edge of town, not finding a song I want to hear
My cold heart melts with the smell of the soup and the Celtic tones
I wonder how many times I've been saved by the conversations of the round old man that picks herbs?
The heading on the newspaper on the table somehow projects what's outside

Please send a comment if one of the links doesn't work. Arigato.

MSN phishing!!!

"If I were you I wouldn't give this site my passwords! I'm not totally sure but I bet it's a virus of some sort!

http://www.blockdelete.com/

Curiosity is a bitch. Let it be." found on http://nomadfromfinland.blogspot.com/

And actually he is pretty true about that... well almost. This my dear reader is a phishing site. :) If you enter your user name and password you will get back to the site (at least I did when I entered some random data), with nothing on it (if you look at the URL, then there is your user name and password you added into the fields before submitting).

So all in all what does it do: it copies your name and password to their database, and when you are offline it logs into your MSN account (and they have access to your hotmail mails also...) and sends through your MSN account this message to the contacts in your list:

"http://www.clicktoforyou.com ;-)"

The think you should do if they got your password is to change your msn accounts password... before they do so...

PS: I just write this post cause I got already this message also...

Between life and death (the consequences of overreacting)

I had a quite interesting week.

On Saturday two weeks ago I woke up in the morning and my right side started to hurt just below the ribs. I didn't pay much attention to it, tough I felt it at every move. I took it as a normal pain, which will last in 3-4 days. The same night I was on a Halloween party with some of my friends. I was trying to be careful. Was a bit afraid of not knowing what it could be.
The night passed, I somehow got home, and the next day when I woke up it was still there. Well the 3-4 day phase is not over, so I won't make a big thing out of it.
Monday it was already annoying at the job. The thing that made me a bit pessimistic was, that the pain was always on the same pitch. And that I couldn't really feel out were it was. It was constant signal of warning. Though I didn't really know about what. The day went buy, I did what I usually do with a growing feeling of being unsafe.
Tuesday was the crucial day. And nothing changed. I was able to do the regular stuff, go to work, to a birthday party and so, but I felt wary. I didn't knew what is causing this.
Wednesday. The day that I said I have a problem. As a friend of my was just operated on his kidney I feared the worst. An operation.
At some point on Thursday I was sure, that I will be operated. I prepared myself mentally and tried to imagine how my state of mind should look like. My thoughts were something like:
"Maybe I will have to change my habits." but mainly: "It is not on me anymore." "I am trusting the doctors. I'm in their hands." And then coming to the point of no regret saying to myself, that there is nothing so important that I would be worry of to loose. Yes, I have a good life. I have friends, family a work. A goal for the next years. But none of them is so strong to really care for when I wouldn't be here.
On Friday I was on the concert on Hiromi my stomach was aching I was lost in toughs and emotions. The biggest question appearing in my mind was how my friends would get a message about the fact, when I would die. I have a lot of people I care for but have no contact with the people who could now about it. In a few seconds I wished during the concert that I would die at the place. It was such a perfect opportunity. But I never meant it seriously. I just like to fix on scenes. Like in movies. And this would have been a great scene, for the movie of my life.
What I also realized during this week was, that I have a mindset that I am invincible, nothing can harm me too much. And that I fear to even think to loose some functionality of my body (hearing, seeing an arm, a finger). I am not able to imagine a feeling of peace in such a state. Though I believe that I will be able to, if something happens to me. I believe I have a strong character, if I have survived so long.
Happy ending was when my father told me it was just a strain...

Garfield section

The first episode of BananMan, click on the pick to see more :)















Will come more, don't worry. Maybe just links though, as there are a loooot of spider jokes, dog appearances and simple Garfield humor.

Or rights can be found at the website www.garfield.com

Bratislava Jazz Days 2007 - Day 2 and 3

Ulf Wakenius and the AMC trio - I think this is called also mainstream jazz. It was a nice experience listening to them. There were a lot of improvisations, and Ulf as a ghost briliantly added to the whole impression. It was worth listening to.

Saxofour - as some ppl agreed upon. This was most propably the best band on saturday (except for the fans of hip-hop). Those for people were showing a brilliant adaptation of movie music. I have heard just once such a band, and it was not really fitting into my mood. These guys were incredible. I say it again INKREDIBLE!!! Not even with their profecienty and their improvisations, but also with their stage performance... Seeing 3 grown up people with their instrument hiding behind a reproductor, while the forth one is playing... or in another scene fighting with their instruments (always according to the movie theme). Lovely, funny, won the audience :) Let the Austrians blow!!!

Mark Egan Trio feat. John Abercrombie (USA) - Well I do not have to much written around this performance: calm solos, and the bassguitar was to deep for my taste. Anyway I believe that this concert was also worth the money. But didn't left any big impressions.

Hanka Gregusova Band - A young Slovakian singer. My opinion got corrupted, as I got an autograph from here dedicated to me :) But I have enjoyed the show a lot. It was amazing to hear her voice, I had the feeling that it fills the whole room, which is exactly what I love to hear :) She had also some very good musicians around here. I didn't like the sax player, though he was making a real though job up there. The pianist is also worth to mention for his great solos! It was really touching :P And the bass player had no real chance except of one, time, but that gave me back the confidence in the classical bass.

Us3 - too much hiphop in the first 15 mins, didn't stay till the end. Though we heard some sax and trumpet solos through the window outside, when we were leaving, so it could have been better... but had no mood for that.

Day 3

Bibi Tanga - french guy, was interesting sound. He plays the bass and so I felt like the whole music was based on this. Big surprise was in some cases the violin. The best song of that all was "At war" which had a text something like: "A country at war - fight love and freedom". While there was a beautiful violin solo. Also on thir site is the song Don't Stop.

Bill Evans Soulgrass - well this was amazing! I never thought a benjo, a sax and a violin. I was shoched more then once how these tree instruments fit into each other. Also the bass player was good, but had just one real solo and stayed mostly in the back. It was a bit country like of course because of the instruments, but if this is what country can be, that I may like it very much. I give an A+ for this concert also.

Friend 'n Fellow - It is still hard for me to believe, that this is their actual name: Constanze Friend and Thomas Fellow. Anyway they are a great duo. Just a guitar and one voice (in this case, though I seen some youtube clips, where they both singing). They made a huge atmosphere, the strongest one during the whole weekend. Small suprises like they played Deep Purple - Black Night, ACDC - Highway To Hell (not my favourite), Johny Cash - Rain Of Fire and the last song which I can't remember - but it was a love song and they played it 2 as fast as it is played normally. I laughed at this, cause again, an experince totally new for me.The song Elf with the German intro was one of the most touching songs of the evening. I loved it :)

Henry Tóth - I have almost forgotten him!!! Bad me, bad me. He was playing at the B stage in one of the breaks. Poor me, he didn't have as much time as the usual B stage performers(just one break). But that was more than enough to enjoy the beauty of his play. In felling a bit latino and sometimes very technical. He build up most of his songs on a slow, calm emotional intro going into a wild improvisation and coming out again. Nothing new, to say the truth, but he makes this extremely well. I enjoyed every second of it :)

Gyra Spyro - Hawaii, sunshine, holiday. Fun, but not my style. But I loved Bonny Bonaparte at the drums! Gush what a great drummer + a good voice also. Bad luck that after around just 6-7 minutes of his final solo half of his drums felldown... of course he finished it like a professional and so played a bit with his voice! Groovy :)


Other things - to many ppl, to few places. Quite disturbing, when you don't even have a place to sit. :(
+ they managed the sound almost perfectly. So it was more then fine quality, except of minor problems.
- beer to expensive 45Skk, Kofola is fine 25Skk (of course 0.5l)
networking possibilities :)

So this is my opinion of the first Bratislava Jazz Days I was on.

Bratislava Jazz Days 2007 - Day 1

It all started, when Mitsuora came on the stage. Well I didn't really know what to expect, I knew just, that she was from Hungary. The songs on the internet, which I have found are not worth mentioning, because of the low quality. So:

Mitsuora: I have never heard something like this before (I haven't heard a lot of music in my life though), it was a fusion of modern jazz and gipsy traditional singing. I am amazed, stunned and in awe. I always though about gipsy music in a high note as there was for sure a reason they were the entertainers of the Hungrian high society just a century ago. I have also heard some gipsy music on radio, till it when, though it never catched me that much. Most propably cause they were playing songs in hungarian. And in this case she was singing (most propably) the original gypsy way. And this music has a very strong rythm in it + all those unusual instruments. I love that :)
Will go for another concert as soon as possible!!!
see video (though just around 15-20 seconds of her music): http://kultura.sme.sk/c/3546008/Jazzove-dni-otvaral-i-Marian-Varga.html

Marian Varga - as a friend said, he has his glorious days behind him. He is still a big name in Slovakia, but the music was not really my style. It fitted as a movie soundtrack. Sometimes very gloomy depressive piano solos. In other cases I felt like on a typical movie interpretation of a middle age market scene. Not my taste mostly.

Tomasz Stanko Quartet - This concert was neighter close to my heart. They were playing good, the solo's where enjoyable, but I need a different kind of music. Anyway it was much much better then Varga.

Alvik - 2. stage: during the breakes on the second stage Alvik was playing. As it is stated on they website they are playing something between nu-jazz nu-soul etc. I missed the first break I didn't know what it will be about, but was afterwards there on time for the second break (left the concert of Tomasz Stanko quartet earlier, saw even Mitsuoka but I was to stupid to ask for an autograph :( Well I had my priority in seeing Alvik). It was more then enjoyable, music for dancing and freaking out. I love it. :)

Mike Stern - no comment, people have to hear him life! It was an awesome concert! I had the feeling at the slow parts as if John Shannon was playing (I heard him earlier then Mike Stern), the solos where amazing! I can't not write here the musicians:
Mike Stern - gitara
Bob Franceschini - saxofón
Dennis Chambers - bicie
Anthony Jackson - elektrická basová gitara
As a friend of my loves the bass, I decided to hear it out a bit. I was amazed how good Anthony Jackson was underlining the guitarplay of Mike Stern, it made the whole thing even more groovy :) But I could really not stop to praise these guys. I was stunned. And this was the only concert where I saw that the audience enjoys the music. Though the ppl weren't reacting that passionate when Mike Stern told, that they should buy his new CD, which he sells after the concert :)

There were no real emotions just a small applauce at one or two stages of the whole festival. Finally at the second half of Sterns concert the people started ti live and were finally clapping and screeming once in a while :)

Going insane

Today I had an unusual experience. I though I was hallucinating. I thought I'm going slowly crazy. But I wouldn't mind, if it would happen this way.
I was sitting in the crowded bus no. 39. people were talking around me and the bus was slowly clattering. Noise smog - I thing this is how modern people call this. And then I felt like an angel was next to me and that nobody is experiencing the same feeling. People were chatting before me, on my right side a girl was sitting calmly and on my right a Walkman was all that is worth to mention. And in this familiar though disturbing surrounding I was hearing snatches of an angel singing. Every few seconds I heard it again. Before me people talking, around me no change. I could not figure out where the voices come from, but was astonished.
After a few minutes of listening to the voice and the people before me I figured out, that the lady next to the window was singing. The experience for me was more than pleasant. It trow me out of everyday troubles and let me fly for a few moments.
I was playing an imagined piano in my head to her voice, till she stopped. I was enjoying the moment till it faded away from my memories. I am sad, that I can't remember.
I have experienced my love to a beautiful woman voice again.

Le Roi Est Mort, Vive Le Roi!

On the 1.September in Bratislava there were the crowning ceremonies again (5th in row). What I pictures I have seen on some ceremonies before, they were a bit better prepared, but anyway it was a nice experience for me.

I was of course a bit disappointed, when the queen of Hungary is crowned and not even one Hungarian world was heard (Slovak, Latin and German were), but anyway I had to accept it as a big theater, with a touch of a medieval fashion show...

Well it all started with a quite tricky weather, which couldn't really decide, if it wants to rain or not...

Well the crowning was fine, no raindrops falling from the sky, it all went on without problems. One of the biggest attractions was, that Otto von Habsburg came for this event also. He would be the rightful Caesar of the Austrian-Hungarian Monarchy.

The most fan part for me was what came after this. The people started to move and we were heading on the other side of the Duna. To say the truth from all those medieval clothing I loved the most to group of people, which were thank god quite near to each other. From one I made a lot of pics, see the link below, from the second, sorry no sound :P

What I'm talking about is the group with fur cloths, which amazed me again and again. The (most propably) fox fur on them has a such beautiful color, that I was loving it from the first time I saw it. The queen and the king weren't important anymore :)

And the second group was the drum players, who gave the ritm in my legs, which made me understand how well would I feel to go with drums giving the ritm to my movement.

I enjoyed this pretty much, although when we were crossing the bridge the clouds got overfilled and let on us a whole lot of water at once... At least it wasn't lightning and in around 30 mins the weather was fine again.

We tried afterwards the "local" stores. If anybody knows what burciak is in English please tell me, we had some glasses of that (one of the best I have ever tasted). Bad luck, that I had to leave earlier and couldn't see the cavaliers.

Another nice experience. And a few pics taken with my now broken phone :( http://picasaweb.google.com/hajdupeti/ASmallCrowningCeremony

Blue Blood

Also from my fathers and mothers side I had nobles in the family. I don't think it is in any way surprising for the territories of the Hungarian Empire (till 1918), as if I'm not mistaken from the 18. century you could buy here also a rank from the emperor. Though I don't know the origins of my families.

I just wanted to share this, because my grandfather was searching for his origins. He knew from the tales he heard, that originally they were from Croatia. There was one tail, that for a blood transfusion they had to bring here ppl from Croatia to have a similar blood, as the people in their region had no "compatible" blood. He found the family crest in a book, then made a copy of it. I just wanted to share the crest of the Rarovichi (I'm not sure if the name is written right.) family.

...well to and the story, in both families we lost the rank of a noble, as it was given to players, who lost them on cards...

Tiszta szívvel

Tiszta szívvel

Nincsen apám, se anyám,
se istenem, se hazám,
se bölcsôm, se szemfedôm,
se csókom, se szeretôm.

Harmadnapja nem eszek,
se sokat, se keveset.
Húsz esztendôm hatalom,
húsz esztendôm eladom.

Hogyha nem kell senkinek,
hát az ördög veszi meg.
Tiszta szívvel betörök,
ha kell, embert is ölök.

Elfognak és felkötnek,
áldott földdel elfödnek
s halált hozó fû terem
gyönyörûszép szívemen.

1925

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Song of Innocence (With A Pure Heart)

I have no God, I have no land,
no father, nor a mother's hand.
I have no crib or coffin-cover;
I share no kisses, I have no lover.

Three days I have been starving numb
for lack of either feast or crumb.
My strength: I'm twenty, whole and hale,
my twenty years are up for sale.

If no one wants to have a try,
then let the Devil come and buy.
and I will jimmy safe and fence,
kill, too, if need, in innocence.

Upon a noose they swing me high
then in the good soil I will lie --
and tips of poison grasses start
to prick above my splendid heart.

Translated by Anton N. Nyerges, Thomas Kabdebo [& Adam Makkai]

found at: http://homepages.paradise.net.nz/hellyer/attila.html

One of my favourite poems (translation below)

József Attila: Íme, hát megleltem hazámat

Íme, hát megleltem hazámat,
a földet, ahol nevemet
hibátlanul írják fölébem,
ha eltemet, ki eltemet.

E föld befogad, mint a persely.
Mert nem kell (mily sajnálatos!)
a háborúból visszamaradt
húszfilléres, a vashatos.

Sem a vasgyűrű, melybe vésve
a szép szó áll, hogy új világ,
jog, föld. – Törvényünk háborús még
s szebbek az arany karikák.

Egyedül voltam én sokáig.
Majd eljöttek hozzám sokan.
Magad vagy, mondták; bár velük
voltam volna én boldogan.

Így éltem s voltam én hiába,
megállapíthatom magam.
Bolondot játszottak velem
s már halálom is hasztalan.

Mióta éltem, forgószélben
próbáltam állni helyemen.
Nagy nevetség, hogy nem vétettem
többet, mint vétettek nekem.

Szép a tavasz és szép a nyár,
de szebb az ősz s legszebb a tél,
annak, ki tűzhelyet, családot
már végképp másoknak remél.

1937. november 24.

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And So I've Found
My Native Country...

And so I've found my native country,
that soil the gravedigger will frame,
where they who write the words above me
do not for once misspell my name.

This black collection-box receives me
(for no one needs me any more),
this Iron Six that was worth twenty,
this coin left over from the war.

None needs that iron ring inscripted
with sweet words, that the world is new:
rights, land.--Our laws are the leftovers;
now pretty gold rings all pursue.

For many years I had been lonely.
Then many people visited.
I'd have been happy if they'd stayed.
You are alone, was what they said.

And so I lived, useless and empty,
and now I see it all quite plain.
They let me play the fool until
by now even my death's in vain.

All through my life I've tried to weather
the whirlwind that would always blow.
I was more sinned against than sinning,
and it's a laugh that it was so.

Spring, summer, autumn, all are lovely;
but winter's loveliest for one
who hopes for hearth and home and family
only for others, when all's done.

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found at : http://www.hungarianquarterly.com/no149/38.html
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although I would like to stick with the my translation of the last verse, loosing the structure of the verse:
Nice is the spring and nice is the summer
but autumn is nicer and the nicest is the winter,
for who's hopes for a fireplace and a family
Is granted only for others.

Of course the English version is not able to reflect the whole atmosphere of the poem, but it is enough to show what its about.

This is the poem of my favorite write. I don't know why, even in my "early days" when I was less then 10 years old I have remembered some of his poems. His tragedy in life and poetry influenced my life. Now that I think of it, I would rather say that I can interpret my life in his poetry and in a way I believe I understand the tragedy of his life, although I have a completely different one.

The first verse is also very near to me, but most probably from a completly different reason. I am a minority in Slovakia. It is quite normal that Slovaks don't know how to write my name down, as our surnames are traditional Hungarian ones (like Szűcs or Török) when they don't even know the letters... and I have a lot of friends who have it even harder then me. If ppl know how to write donw your name, it means that you are somehow related to them. I think this is for ppl in a minority even more important, then for other ppl.

LGT

After a nice trip to Budapest with some British guys we met in the train, I slowly got to the Sziget. Well, I'm sure it will be a hell of a week there, and would like to be there to, but no money no fun + I'm working during the week. But anyway the concert was awesome, tough with a lot of difficulties...
Basically when we bordered the train to Budapest, it was full. Well not as full as the trains on a Sunday during the school year, but it was full. A lot of people with backpacks were going to the Sziget, most of them speaking English in the train, I just happened to talk to a girl from the Netherlands and then we (I went there with my brother) got a sitting place with 3 guys from Great Britain.
After some side stories we went to the Sziget... got there, check-in went superb, no real waiting time :)
Inside a lot of foreign people. In the evening a lot of parties, good mood, smiling faces, small groups playing guitar (Oasis - Wonderwall) . We went up 14 meters on a tower, and looked around, before me 2 discos, behind a life concert (though amateurs) and drunk happy people cruising around - it was around 2:15 :)

Getting back to the concert. I learned some lessons: don't go with people, who don't have the same mindset, it can spoil a lot, even if you like those ppl... I like to be in the first rows - they don't; I wanted to buy a shirt before the concert to have something remembering me this concert... well I had the feeling at 0:30 that we will miss it... we didn't, but I was quite nervous about that...

About the concert - first the problems, then the things I want to remember:

• 3-5 times happened, that a "bass-wave" was coming from the speakers (I hope you understand what I mean, if not, give a note, I will find it out what it's called)
• A helicopter pissed up one whole song, by cruising above the stage... Though after the song Presser told us to wink at them to go away, but the one guy showing his middle finger in the audience made the difference (to see just one middle finger from around 200 hands is quite acceptable I think)...
• I missed though a stage performance they were promising, it was well, but I saw in my mind a more colorful performance
• Nothing else really bothered me... and this was max 3% of the concert.

So lets get to the thinks worth to mention!!!

• according to the organizers 50.000 people were at that concert
• age of the fans was in average I think 35-40, I believe there was somebody from every generation!
• one of the most interesting instruments I have seen in my life (something between a trumpet and a violin, which you play like a violin...)
• the audience... singing the songs of the classics was great. LGT has been listening to the audience singing one of their whole song, without playing anything - well thats quite luxurious :)
• the improvisation parts were nice, and some new feats, they tried to play Boksz with an electric guitar using a distorter. The monotone parts were quite dull, as it was overlaping all other instrument, but when they started to play the instrumental part as a duo with a normal guitar, it gave a much better sounding, then the original song
  
• the timing - exactly when I said, that there should have been a change into a more powerful song they had played it
• that I knew all the songs and most of the texts also, well I have been listening to them the last month... (and that I couldn't here myself singing, cause it had to be horrible (with my voice...), I have spoiled the night for a few ppl :))
  
• The amazing drum solos at the break, when the band was going down between the ppl (also one of the worst parts of the concert, as I couldn't see them, just on the screen).
• And of course a nice ending, seeing all four musicians behind the piano, singing Szól a rádió (The radio talks), the audience singing with them as the whole last hour and you see and here Presser fighting with his tears...

I had a great time, miss the people I used to go to such concerts with, but thank you for showing me the beauty of them. And looking forward for the next great concert.


...Nagyon jó ez a repülés, ez a távoli ragyogás!
Nagyot bámul a vasutas!
Felszállás, éjszakai vonatozás!
LGT - Éjszakai vonatozás

Music - Portal

Once in a while I browse the net for amateur bands, to listen to their music, and find something new. Till now my favourite site in this way was http://fm4.orf.at/soundpark Here the bands could upload their tracks, and in the first month you are able to download them, and then just to hear them out. Anyway there are some good songs, though not many in a good quality. But I have found some bands I like.

But recently I have found another site. www.garageband.com I listened to the progressive best 40. Well I wasn't much caught by the most of the songs, but it didnn't matter much, as already the second song was incredible. Portal - Insurgent few (life) You can hear the song at http://www.portalband.com

I was amazed. Then looked around at their site, and found out, that they are needing some translators. So I translated their bio (took me ages) into Hungarian. and send it to them. In less then 30 mins I got a reply, that its fine, and the only problem si that they are making now a new site, as the new CDs is comming out. .. well problem is the bat word... opportunity - make a translation of that one, too, and get a goodie package with a CD, stickers and a T-shirt!!! Well thats motivation :)

They also told me that they might come to Slovakia during they Europe tour!!! Would be so happy to see them. :)

And thats the fun in finding amateur bands, which no one knows, and then you are the one, who is a contact person, and get top know them ;) Hell I love it!

Nice surprise

I though at the beginning of July that I will have a quite boring summer. Most of my friends in Bratislava went home or abroad. But I was wrong.

The first nice change came on a bday party (not mine :P) in June, where I met a lot of friends from high school. I think now I'm in the period of my life, where you see the need of true friends. A lot of people said to me that most of your true friends you will met in your grammar and high school, now I agree with them. We had a quite good collective, which is still there. It is no problem to go out for a beer and talk with them about anything. So I meet a lot of people from them in the last days.

The second group of people are the trainees and their friends (trainee - I use this word for foreigners working in Bratislava through an organization). I met Dom through them. Very funny, very communicative. And the best thing he did to me, was that he gave me a few chances to get to know the other trainees, and come to parties. I have to thank him a lot for few nice parties! I hope I will be able to get into their contact list and go out with them more often. I love to talk to people with different life experiences... My only problem is, that I quite often lack the questions...

I like to not sit at a computer all the time. Thank you.

Death in the air

I don't know about being deadly ill, nor I don't plan any suicide - I will talk about something different. But I will tell the world, that I don't believe in suicide. When I was around 10 years old I was thinking about suicide, also the means how to best do it. Well I didn't found an answer for how to do it... But I came up with the mindset, that it is useless, well in my case illogical, to give up life. I think because I'm a curious person and with a positive attitude to life.

So whay I write this post was because I really felt death in the air. I was thinking about loosing people near to me. Most propably because my grandfather had a dangerous operation in july, and my subconsiousness was giving me sign to think about it.

So I just realized that how lost I would be, when I would loose the people I depend on, my parents. I understood that I fear the day, this will happen, and that I can't even imagine a life without them.

I think I should learn how to cook and wash my cloths from my mother, and go for a hunt with my father (I will go there for hiking, I do not agree with killing animal in that way. Though at least they are killing with considerations - old and overpopulated animals -, and not everything that comes in their sites...). Every of these activities should bring something in my life and on the other hand I would spend some time with my parents.

I just know that I fear death, but this should be normal. I will need to control and understand these feelings more, so if the time comes, I will react the right way (if needed, then be strong or just simply cry from the bottom of my heart, and then move on)...

Break

I use to have breaks at writing blogs... I had one till yesterday. I was writing for 2 hours new posts yesterday in the evening about things I wanted to share, but I lost the fle :(

This was a small sad post.

Started a new work

1.) Please don't ask me what I do. It's my second day now. Only after 2-3 weeks I will have a basic overview, and will have some answers!!!

Anyway I'm happy to have a job again. I wasn't working for the last 9 months and my financial stability, well became into a financial instability... though I'm still able to pay rent, I don't have money for food anymore. I thank here for the support of my parents, that I still can count on in this case.
I usually think: my money my freedom. I was always told by my father, that I can do whatever I want, when I won't live in his house and eat from his money. And I'm a person who lives according to rules. So this was the rule number one in my life. That's why the first time I earned money, it was the first time I felt freedom. I believed, that I rule my life, finally.

That's why I enjoy so much the though that I work and will earn money again. I can make again decisions on my own, and also I will have to take all the consequences. Looking forward for my first 2 salaries :)

Looking back at my birthday

I had on 10. june my birthday, so almost a month ago, and it was one that at first assured me in how I imagine my place in this universe.

I wanted to meet a few friends during the Junifest (where I had stolen the 1 liter jug). I have told the most of them already a month ago, that I want to go. I was really looking forward to it as a small child. Except of Sebastian, nobody came. Though in his place it seemed, that he camed because his friends, with whom he also planned to come here.
So the first bad experience was, that basically noone came. To make it even worse the only guy who did come was sitting at a different table, and going away without changing a word with me. That was a quite disappointing experience. And what pissed me up even more was the fact, when on sunday (I wanted to meet them 2 days before my birthday) I became a msg from Sebastian that he wishes me everzthing best on my birthday after ignoring me completly on friday and not using the chance to congratulate me personally. So basically all that I have planned for that day went up in smoke (A füstbe ment terv) .

But our story does not end here. It would, if I would be so pessimistic, as I try to be usually, but I tried to figure out why it went so bad... I was searching for the good things around these happenings. And there are a lot of them.

On wednesday I was calling Erika, who is a girl that has to many things on her mind, and wants to be everywhere, if she remembers the meeting she was promising me on friday... of course she forgot. Annoying. Anyway what happened afterwards was, that when we met on friday she didn't sleep for 2 days (parties to celebrate her bachelor degree and her moving out of the dormitories). We met at around 2 p.m I think. She was falling asleep on the bench, and was telling that she is in hurry cause she wants to meet a friend who she can't meet during the summer anymore.
It took me time to inderstand, that she has really taken the time, even though she needed it herself to be also with me. It took me time to understand because of the circumstances and her character, that this was a great gift. Thank you!

The second such gift came from Laci, who wanted to come up to Bratislava, just to see me and then leave in the evening. Loosing a few hours of his life just by traveling.
I then agreed with him, that I will call my old friends from high school (in Slovakia it is called also gymnasium!) to meet up at the next weekend at a near sea to have a picnic. I have called a lot of people to go, and at the end I have decided to go somewhere else. It was a family problem, I think I will talk about that also in a blog.
But I told my friends via sms, to meet up in the end in a small pub at around 20:00, if somebody is interested, then send me a sms. I got one sms, from a good friend, Zümi, who told me he wants to meet up... This was at around 20:30. I was quite disappointed again, cause I just got one sms.

Anyway, Zümi was called by Csongi, who told him that ppl are already at the pub, which I have suggested, and if they want to go also, thats how I got to know that actually ppl are waiting for me at the pub, and that was quite surprising! As we arrived many of them had to leave already. So they stayed another 30 min and then left.

It is a good feeling, that I have ppl I can influence meeting up, and I have ppl caring about me in my surronding. Not many, but there are some. And that gives me a bit selfconfidence.

PS: I was talking to Sebastian afterwards, he said on beerfest like the Octoberfest in Germany it is quite common to just go to one table and knock on it which is like saying hello to everybody.
2. thing I got to know from Sebastian was, that it is said in Germany, that when you congratulate somebody before his birthday, then it brings misfortune.
...cultural differences :)

PS2: and I wanted to thank everybody who cheared me up on my birthday and wished me all the best

Green blood???

Green blood caused by medication (drugs). Don't swallow everything you get from a doctor...
See full story here: http://www.cbc.ca/canada/british-columbia/story/2007/06/08/health-green-blood.html

The fight between good and evil

We live in dark times. You never know what could happen to you and when. You never know what the person next to you thinks. Everyone is suspicious, everyone can be the bad guy.

Or story happened ones in Bratislava... It was an unusual warm summer day when you sweat till you have water in your body. The people where happy anyway. They didn't know, didn't care what will happen. They though it was only a regular day, with a small festival called Junifest, where beer was flowing like water. And we all know, that beer is one of the most dangerous drinks in the world, which can make ppl go crazy and do things, which can't be told out loud.
It was already past MIDNIGHT when the evils spark sprang into its victim. Some ppl noticed how is eyes started to be starry but they though it was just because of the beer. The waitress suspected the least, and it was a horrible mistake from her to not take it away earlier. And so the inevitable finally happened. A litter jug slowly slipped into the backpack, the devil himself smiled in hell. But he still could make a move to make our antihero suffer for his mistake... there where 2 guards at the door, who just a second ago controlled every bag!
It happened as it should in all stories with drunk people in it. He has chosen the time to live so, that the guards didn't give a damn. Phuh... said or antihero, when he noticed that another guard is standing at the gate just a floor lower. When he learned something in life (and from a lot of managers) then it is, that if you want to make a good expression, make the things they want you to do even before asking... So he opened his bag and showed it the guard. The guard looked into it quickly saw a jacket in it and didn't care anymore. Freedom!
I will be feeling always guilty when I will drink from this glass. Thats my penalty from life. And I'm 99% sure, that I won't do it again.

Take care!

Reclaimer: In Slovakia it is NOT a normal thing to steal!!! If I wouldn't be drunk I would think about that, as it is a beautiful peace of art, and I have in my room just a 0.5l glass, and to buy one is quite expensive. But I really wouldn't have taken it!

Money above quality

This topic was inspired from the happenings with the Petőfi radio, which was an organic part of the last 5 years of my life and was... well how should I say... innovated... upgraded... was given a new face..

Petőfi was the only Hungarian radio I was listening to (the 2. radio I use to hear is FM4 which is an Austrian... how to define... a multi language (English and German) non-pop radio).
It represented a unique program by taking apart various topics from every aspect of life. From literature to science, from religion to philosophy and also music and health care. Of course it is easy to talk about these topics, the difference that this radio made to all the non-existing such radio stations was the preparation of the reporters. Basically every topic was moderated by people who do the job for a few decades knowing the ppl, which can talk about the topics in an interesting way.
For me it was the only program in the mass media, which had still a value.

I remember, I started to hear Petőfi when I was around 17-18 and at that time I was up till 1-2 a.m. Because of the great topics I began t be up till even 3 a.m. Those where beautiful days.

The alternative which is now offered is a non-stop music radio. As it is said for the age from 18 to 39. I have to admit, that the music selection is not a common one from the offer which Hungary's radio stations give, but I believe it will change in 2-3 months as the commercial radios will take some steps towards these music styles.

Of course they want to make a commercial like radio, as they want to sell it.

So I let one tear for the past, for a radio, that was worth listening. (anyway the new laws will destroy the internet radio in the USA). So the radio will be slowly history. I hate to think of it.

Take care!

Bazant Na Mlynoch 2007 (Pheasant At The Mills)

- For those who may find this blog entry searching for info on the Bazant 2008 -> 30. May, Friday, Mlynska Dolina; main acts:
Puding Pani Elvisovej, Polemic, Hex, Horkýže Slíže, Aneta Langerová, Tina, Komajota
So come and enjoy -

Don't be suprised by the name... Pheasant comes from a Slovak beer brand called Zlaty Bazant (Golden Pheasant) and Mills is an abbreviation of a place in Bratislava called Mlynska Dolina. Mlynska Dolina is basically a small student city in Bratislava, with a few thousand students living there.
Bazant Na Mlynoch is happening every year, at the end of may. It is a one day event, with a lot of live performances from Czech and mostly Slovak bands. For me it is one of the best events in the year!!! As I enjoy hearing instrumental music I don't go to discos, cause I got annoyed by the music instead of enjoying it, and I have no real community with which I would go to concerts.

Anyway how does My bazant look like:

- I meet at least 30 friends I haven't seen for a few months. So I am with them, till it is fun, till we have something to tell, and then go on to find new ppl :)
- Enjoying the concerts. Not important if it is "calm" music or for jumping :)
- Drink a lot of beer :)

This year:
The worst part of it was, that one of my favourite live bands didn't came - Ciste Tvary :( The bass player was my schoolmate when I started studiing informatics in the University.
The bad part was the showman Sajfa - I never liked that guy.
The missing part - No Vidiek this year, so neighter they show, which brings a very good mood nor their hits: When it's 7 a.m I turn on my radio (Ked je 7 rano zapnem radio)... :P
The best parts of this years Bazant were, the two last concert where I was fighting myself into the first rows... I don't think I will do it again, but according to the circumstance, that my ankle still hurts a bit it was the best place for enjoying the concert (so I was seeing Polemic and Buty from the first line) :)

Anyway Buty as the finishing band wasn't a good joice. They are playing good music, I liked it a lot, but for drunken ppl who want to party there should have been a better music for dancing, after Polemic (who are real showman). Last year it was raining like hell, and Buty wouldn't be able to hold those ppl around like Kristof last year. Most propably this year 40-50% of the ppl would have left after Polemic.

I think this festival makes me feel younger than I'm. And most propably that's why I plan to visit it in the next years also.

Goodbye Klepo and Deny

Goodbye!

These two ppl were leaving last week, and I won't see them for a few months at least. Deny to Lithuania and Klepo to Pakistan.
I was a bit disappointed that Deny didn't make a private zeroth farewell party, with some old friends... or maybe she did, I just didn't knew about it. I was telling here this 1 1/2 month ago. Of course as in AIESEC always, you have too much to do.
And I was also disappointed, that I couldn't go with Klepo touring (they made a trip weekend into the Tatras), as I had a sprankled angle.

Anyway they hade a farewell party last thursday before Bazant. Around 20-30 ppl came. It was quite fun. I met an old friend, who I haven't seen for 2 years, and now she is with Klepo (poor them, as Klepo has to leave now :( ).
And I was talking alot with Medved about how and what to eat. We both read books in the last days about this topics, but from different authors. But the result of the conversation was that the books where talking about the same. Today the food we can buy does not contain half the vitamins and minerals the body needs, so it is important to start a diet.
In my book it was said, that today there is a quality starvation: you get a lot of fat and proteins, but the amount of the vitamins and minerals which enable your body to use the fat and the proteins is simply not enough. According to both or books a human should normally live 120-130 years long... So in the last days I try to get as many information about the food I eat as possible before I buy it.

But getting back to the main topic. I know Klepo now for more then 3 1/2 years and Deny for 2 years I think. I have a lot of memories with them, Klepo being the craziest guy I ever met developed during the years in my eyes to a person who thinks sustainable and creates respect very easily with his thoughts.
Deny on the other hand fascinated me at the beginning with her balance between work and fun. Which represents for me in a way the @ KE culture :) Being extremely responsible and on the other hand a friend.

I thank the world that I can count these people between my friends, and hope they changed me also to a better person.

I will miss you both! Take care!

Non-Stop Internet Access

I hate it! Now that I started to discipline myself this happens and makes my whole word break into pieces. I need to get the right motivation to start learning! I CAN DO IT! And integrate the internet as a source for work more then for playing! I just need to think at the right arguments and do the right thinks at the right time...

Movie review - The Fountain

In the last year, mostly because of the influence of Dino I started to watch movies which are not always easy to understand (if possible), or have a something special in them. Anyway a friend told me to watch the movie The Fountain,

After the first half an hour I was moved by the surroundings. Every small detail, every imagined place was so real, as in a dream - you know it's not true, but you believe it could be :) . Time to time I lost a few sentences while I was starring at the sight. But of course a good take is not enough, if you don't have the right sound. The story tells about a man and a woman. The man trying everything to save the woman who is dying, even if it would cost his life. A classic story, so it seems, but the jumps in space and time amaze me and make it interesting... The epic fight should continue. And while the woman assures the man, about the right choices, which is to wait and accept. This comes into conflict with the nature of people and so he fights, till he finally understands what his mission is.

As always in such films I was deeply touched at the end. If I could cry, I would split one or two pearls of water. I would like to be so sure also, when it comes to the decisions, that I can't influence. And hopefully I will walk in the first snow. :)

Blogging to say I'm alive

I realized today that I haven't written anything in a while, and thats a bad sign for me. I am quite lazy sometimes... where laziness means not doing anything that has a meaning or an effect. So I decided to let my thoughts fly, and we will see what will come out.

The last few times I was on the net I was killing time on youtube. Mainly looking for funny videos. So I found between others a lot of Jim Carrey and Chris Rock videos. The biggest problems were that I had to hear 2-3 parts of CRs show more then once, as I couldn't understand him. Well it is never enough to know understand language. You also have to get used to the person talking :) That is something that reminds me on myself. I also speak a (bit) blurry. To fast, to quiet and on top of that I often don't use my teethes when I form the words... Most probably the effect of to much sitting before the TV in my childhood, and so talking less to people.

I was reading and seeing a lot about different "conspiration theories", like:
- Health industry is working to sell as much drugs as possible (Chris Rock has a very good scene about this topic also) - where the solution to most of the problems could be, that we eat the right things - vitamins and minerals... Sounds fine I will try to out with special meals I will be searching for. As almost any food you can by is "plastic"...
- The second was a 30 year story which was all about manipulations in the arabic worlds and USA... getting in the end to the point, that Al Kaida was just a brainchild of individuals which spread over the politic scene and caused a fear in the world which hopefully ends shortly...
- And a small statement about global warming...
And the biggest problem is, what I should believe off all of this.

Anyway I'm having exams now, so will be off for quite a while. At least a lot of actions will come the next weeks. Bazant na Mlynoch, Junifest :) Yipee!

Off :)

After Eurovision 2007

So the Eurovision is over. I congratulate Serbia for winning the contest. They had a very good song, although not one of my favourite.

Hungary got in the end 9th. I think it's a very nice result, so that means Hunagry will be represented hopefully also next year in the finals. I would here thank for Serbia for the ten points (we have given you back the favour :)) and also for Finnland for the 10 points. At the beginning of the show our reporter at the Eurovision was telling, that a technician came into his place and said, that his favourite is the Hungarian song... although not because the music, but because the nation.

This is for me a very interesting statement. Depending on what the nationality means for you of course. For my nationality is very important, as I'm a minority in Slovakia, it shows were I came from, and were I belong to. That's why the technicians sentence made me feel happiness and respect. I interpreted in these words a feeling of brotherhood between nations or I think we are only cousins in this case, cause our culture differs a lot. But it is anyway a very good feeling and motivates me to prefer Finns a bit more. (Though maybe they told every reporter who was in Finnland the same to get more votes :P, but I don't believe this theory...) Anyway I have a good opinion about Finnish people till now, so maybe I will go there and look around one day, to see if they are the kind of people I have heard they are (I met around 7 Finnish ppl in my life till now and all just for a short time). We'll see. Anyway I'm deeply sorry that you didn't get any points from Hungary :( Though I have no problems with the music Hungary voted for in general (except Turkey and Belarus, Greece is also doubtful...). I really liked the idea of Romania singing about love in 5 different languages, Georgia got me also but I don't know why, though the original clip has some beautiful shots... and I would have given Germany for sure more points! Cause Women rule the world :)

Anyway the clip from Georgia really caught on me, so I now search for some Hungarian folk art, which I really enjoy watching :)

Take care, whoever you are, I do!

By The Way - all clips can be found on Youtube or under www.eurovision.tv choose mediacenter, in the upper 1/3 of the page on the right side. In the new site click on the interpretes country and then on the play icon at the movie.

Eurovision 2007 Semi-finals

After last year, when my friend came back from Croatia and talked in a high note about the Eurovision in Croatia, it stuck in my mind. And now it is here again :)
Of course I'm not really into pop as I already described my music taste, but accidently I have heard, that the Hungarian winner of the last years "Mega Star" (TV competition for the best voice of the country) is going to participate.
Hungarys "Mega Star" this year was an extraordinary competition. The last 4 competitors were incredible and extremly diverse. And the winner was Magdolna Ruzsa from Serbia (living there in the local Hungarian minority) Here are some of my favourite songs (thanks YouTube :), enjoy:
Ruzsa Magdolna
Ederlezi - Goran Bregovic
AC/DC - Highway To Hell
Rocky Horror Picture Show - Time warp
Szabo Eszter
Don't Cry For Louie - Vaya Con Dios
Good Luck - Basement Jaxx
AC/DC - shook me all night long
Poka Angela
Mercedes Benz - Janis Joplin
Szomoru Vasarnap (almost with the "original text", was played by various interprets under the title: Gloomy Sunday)
Miss Celie's Blues
As my ankle sparkled (I hope I wrote the name of the injury correctly) on thuesday and on my mothers wish I came home on thursday. I just saw the last 3 competitors of the semifinals. To say the truth I wasn't really interested in watching all the interprets. But in the review I have seen some quality music also. I'm a bit disappointed that the Czech group, Kabat, didn't got into the finals, according to the review there where playing some typical Czech rock music, which the Czechs and Slovaks like to sing on concerts. I like that atmosphere :)
What I really enjoyed at the end of the show was the finish performance (it is now organized by Finland), where I would say the author of the scene nicely combined, according to my knowledge, the best Finland can offer in music.

1. Finnish folk
2. A weak guitar play (most propably because it is a commercial show, but at least they remembered the finish guitar heroes)
3. Of course with a beautiful opera singers voice

Basically this is for me the old Nightwish concept :) ... I haven't heard yet what they are playing now.
Back to the most important information: Hungary Got Into The Finals!!! :)

PS: hopefully I will find a lot of youtube videos from this eurovision :)

Symposium about CSR

Here is a link on the basic knowledge: What is CSR?
I will quote the first sentence of it, as I find it contains the main idea:

"Corporate Social Responsibility (CSR) is a concept that organizations, especially (but not only) corporations, have an obligation to consider the interests of customers, employees, shareholders, communities, and ecological considerations in all aspects of their operations. This obligation is seen to extend beyond their statutory obligation to comply with legislation.

CSR is closely linked with the principles of Sustainable Development..."

Last weekend I was on a symposium about CSR (corporate social responsibility) and enterpreneurship in learning. I was focusing my point of view onto CSR as this topic follows me from my first year in AIESEC. And I believe that this is a topic worth to work with.
Well after my arrival I had several disappointing experiences, starting from the accomodation trough the organisation not even finishing with the chair or the first days agenda. I was looking forward for a conference which is organized on a very high level. Instead I was experiencing a regular conference which we have in AIESEC. Well in my eyes nothing special.

The first positive experince were the delegates from some foreign countries. I love to be in an international community. Or maybe just between new ppl who don't know each other.
The second day was fine, as the company presentations started. I was the whole day on the CSR track. Pontis Foundation, EBBF, ZSE, ABN-Ambro where the presentators who gave a basic idea of what CSR is and how the companies implement it, what projects do they make. I believe that most of the bigger companies already implement CSR in their programs. Some more infor on these organisations/companies:
Pontis Foundation
EBBF
ZSE
ABN - Ambro

And after these presentation we had a manager from the City group, who was having a workshop with us about CSR. He has a lot of practical experience and as CSR is his hobby he does as much as possible to spear the idea of CSR. We had a great workshop from an enthusiastic presentator. I don't want to go into detail. I will try to write some posts later on about my viewpoint on CSR.

At the end of the conference most of us agreed that the biggest problem in Slovakia, and Eastern Europe is the lack of klnowledge about CSR in the society, and that its necesity is not seen.

Tagged

Today I've got 3 messages from very good friends, that I've got Tagged! For those who don't know - one of those online communities where you should get "connected" with your friends and have an easier platform to share the things you can share anywhere else. Though they give you the opportunity to have all your stuff at one place... Well I don't see the added value compared to a blog or a website.
Usually I ignore these but not now, as this had to be a warning for something (I believe that there are no coincidences, and I usually try to find a meaning...) I think now, that I got these tags cause

1. I have friends who think about me
2. I get annoyed by these portals

I first met one of these communities I think 2 years ago, of course subscribed. Why not, a friend is invitating me. The annoying stuff started around 3 or four weeks later when I should have joined at least 5-10 new communities, half of them containing the same ppl I saw in the first one. As every one of these communities offers the opportunity to send an invitation to all the ppl you have in your contact list...
Even more annoying is, that most of these portals need the same information from you to enter, and really I don't want to even copy paste all this info from one place to another... although I didn't have to fill them at all.

Well then comes the idea of unification, as in every period of computarilazation (humankind?) when somebody will say stop. Why can't everybody has an own style community which he updates, and just connects him/herself to everybody else he would like to. Or at least a place which contains these repeatedly appearing information, and when you change it in one system, you will change it in all of them. I do not see this option as real, as who would like to give his/her information into a "central" database, where with just maybe a loggin name and a password anyone can enter... So the long line of this communities will continue. I have to cope with it I think.

Anyway looking to read/write some more blogs :)

...
Maybe I will change my opinion... I had a bad mood while writing this blog.

Music

What does music mean to me? Why do I need it?

Music is emotion. Music is a way of self-expression. Music is a feeling. It influences every cell in my body and mind. It influences my mood and I want it to do so.

The only problem is, that the same music gives a totally different feeling to different people. See I don't like electonic at all, as my head begins to ache when I here the constant drum-machine for half an hour. On the other hand some people use it to party hard... Thats quite a shame, cause I think music could be much more used for defining feelings than words, if people would feel similar about hearing the same music. But we are different also in this way...

I think if we could simply share what's in our minds wouldn't work neighter as the optimal way of communicatin. 1. question is what we will share. Moments or memories in our minds, that pop up? But then if I want to say somebody I feel relaxed, then maybe I would send a picture with a me on a jazz concert with one of the best solos on guitar or saxophone or vocals or drums or... (Sorry got away with the though... or bass ... :)) While the one I'm sending my memories doesn't understand jazz at all...
But what if we would send feelings? Except of the problem in modern society that we don't want to share our feelings, cause what happens if somebody hurts us, I think also the same problem can come up as with pictures. Misunderstanding based on the character of the person. For me in a way even though it hurts a bit the feeling of solitude is a way of expressing comfort and safety. I don't know what you are associating with solitude. It could be fear, boredom...
So I think there will be always the question, how we can express ourselves the way ppl would understand us properly... maybe we can't. Though I would wish we could at least smile at eachother from our hearts more. It's a fine feeling for me if someone smiles at me :)

back to music
I do live my whole life with music. During everyday life I hear mostly calm, could say 'sleepy' music, as it is very fine to sleep on this kind of music. I think I like it better that way. I don't like to run in general. :) Although some more energy would be nice to do my work better...

And now a sortiment of the music I was/am listening to:
I like different kinds of music but it has to be instrumental music. From Rock through different Jazz and Blues styles through metal till some classics and also german pop-rock and the kind of english pop which The Verve plays. So basically if I would like to wtirte down my evolution (one phase is specified by the fact that I have listened to that interpret the most):
0.phase - Republik, LGT, Queen
1.phase - Nirvana, Mettalica
2.phase - Nightwish
3.phase - Led Zeppelin, Deep Purple
4.phase - Agnes Milewski, K's Choice, The Verve, Richard Ashcroft, Coldplay, Omega
5.phase - Anime OSTs, Enya, Afro Celt Soundsystem, Waking Vision
6.phase - Dire Straits, Fleetwood Mac
6,9.phase - Nohavice, Ghymes
7.phase - Macy Gray, Morcheeba
8.phase - Radiohead
9.phase - Tatrai band, LGT, Presser Gabor

Something like this. Of course I have to add that till now I was on two Glenn Hughes (ex-bassist of Deep Purple) concerts. Gods it's incredible what that man can do with his voice. The atmosphere which I felt there was always fascinating and touching. I can recommend him to everybody who likes to see a group of "high-end" musicians on the stage.
Here is most propably the right place to thank Luki for a lot of hours teaching (well telling me) about music. Thank you a lot, you gave me a widther overview about music.

PS: as I was writing this blog I found a new pearl :) Robin Thrower. Style is near to Led Zeppelin. Extremelly nice drum solo at the end :) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s14laZt2qZg

Missed a concert, met a friend

Last weekend I went to BP (Budapest), Hungary. I wanted to go there for the concert of Roger Waters, but I couldn't get the tickets in time :( Sorry Luki, I tried my best. At least now I have a communication system for Budapest.
As I was at least able to arrange accodomation I said to myself that I will go anyway.
The way there was typical like me: 1. went home from BA (Bratislava), as I had to deliver a bill to my father. Took my sleeping bag also, so when I go back to BA to catch the train to BP I don't have to get back to my room. Of course I realized only at home, thatI forgot to take my money with me, which was also in BA. So I went back in the morning, to get the money, but then again I forgot my sleeping bag there...

On the train I was talking to a guy who just came back from France from a conference. He is working on minority problems. Well this topic is quite interesting for me, as basically I'm in a minority... (Hungarian in Slovakia). But I think I will have a Post specially for this topic.

Anyway. Had a nice chat with him for an hour. And after that Tamas came for me on the station. Brought me to his home. Quite nice place. We were talikng the whole night through. Sharing electronic information and a lot of stories. Haven't seen him for 2 years.

So the next day I went met with my cousin in BP for lunch. Haven't talked to him for ages, also. And then I went home.

The interesting part of sunday was when I saw a movie I took with me from BP. It's called What The Bleep Do We Know About The World. It was a movie that gave me a new view on thing. Some of the thoughts which stayed on my mind are:
Everyone is addicted to fellings, which then inspire their behaviour.
You create your surronding.
Are you strong enough to make a change in yourself? Can you bear the loss which could come with it? Like loosing some of your best friends because maybe they cant come along with the person you have become?
Unity.
You can become God if you get aware.
There where some more... though I cant remember. Will maybe write a post about this also. Anyway, some of these sentences are taken out of the context... like the God one... so dont interpret to much into it.

So long.

new PC

Finally!!! After comparing a lot of hardware components I finally made up with a quite fine new PC for 15.000 Skk (1Euro -> 34 Skk, around 450 Eur). For those who understand:
Intel Core 2 Duo E6300 1.8GHz BOX 775 2MB dual
ASUS P5ND2 SE
CORSAIR DDR2 1GB 667MHz
ASUS GeForce EN7600GT 256MB HTDI PCX

I wanted originally a an MSI GeForce, but they had none. :(
So now I have almost have a functional PC...
1. problem RAM is not fully enabled - uses it only on 553Mhz and not on 667Mhz, which is quite annoying...
2. had some problems with installation because I put the two CD drives above eachother, the DVD player didn't read the CDs properly... After I unplugged the CD drive it works fine.

The graphical capacity is enormous I think. So now I'm trying to get some games where I can try out the graphical capacity - like Oblivion :).

Changes in life

In the last few weeks I realized that there are a lot (this year I met around 4-5) of people in this world who encourage me to live. This doesn't mean that I'm thinking of some kind of a suicide. I had none of these kind of thoughts for ages. The last time, when I was 10, but then I told to myself, that it has no "logic" to do suicide. It is a simple loose situation, as you never know what will come, what will happen. Life is about changes... Well of course I never was tortured. I don't know what would happen if I would feel constant pain for a longer time.

... talking again of something else then I originally wanted to... I have on the last few years a constant bad mood. Not letting people near to me. Being to neutral I guess, though in some ways I don't know how change it. So I would encourage now everybody who knows a solution for my problem please help me:

The problem: having no ideas how to start a conversation, or what to talk about.
What do you do, if you meet somebody whom you like, with whom you would like to talk for hours, who makes you feel fine just when he/she smiles, or you can make them smile and you have no words, you have no thoughts which would came in your mind, simple emptyness. And if something comes in your mind, then it has nothing to do with the topic, or has no real value in your eyes?
What happens if you can't start and lead a conversation in our world, where conversation is the A-Z of basic relationships. Where you meet with ppl more often through the internet and mobile phones then on the street.

Thats my problem in the last years, or maybe in my whole life. The need is there, but I feel like the tools for realization are missing. So please help me :)

PS: trying to see the world with a sunshine on my face. maybe I'm a masochist, that's why I'm not depressed like hell :)

A day after the day after... Bad luck

The only thing important for today is that I wrote and successfully saved my homework, when a half an hour after that my PC crushed. I was watching a movie, and the pic/sound stopped suddenly. I turned off the PC, but when I turned it on again the leds were OK, but the monitor didn't start. I have taken the PC apart (BIOS reset, taken out all the drives/RAMs/cards as used to in DELL through the phone, when I worked there) but the same problem - PC starts, power on and working signals shine on the front, no beep code or anything. I think my mobo (mother board) is defect. Yipee, just 4 months ago I had to replace my power supply... Will have to get a new PC from home :( All my progs gone, have to reinst everything now. I had a fully functioning system (except the SQL database :P). This will take me a days work to get a system like I had before. Installing Win and Linux + applications... Thank God I at least have all the progs on my external hdd, and there is no important data I could recall which went lost for the next 2 weeks. The only thing that bothers me is the dictionairy and the apache server :) So I don't have a place to learn php further on.

Wish me luck, so I get a functioning PC soon.