Another short movie :)

A perfect short movie. 15 mins in total. A nice story a perfect mindset. Enjoy!



I hope I will be able to learn how to say such nice things to people. I'm usually criticizing people :(
But I learned already how to smile much more, than 3-4 years ago. It is something in my hands, and I really try to use it. And if from time to time someone smiles back, isn't that a great feeling?

PS: by the way, the photographer Victoria's dog is called Peti, gave me another huge smile at the end of the movie :)

Beeing torn apart by Richard Bona

14.04.2008 - Richard Bona in PKO, Bratislava, Slovakia. What a concert! (Click here for interview after the concert)

First I was afraid if I wouldn't like the concert after an AIESEC conference I still feel the PCS (post conference syndrome see: http://uncyclopedia.org/wiki/AIESEC note uncyclopedia is not a relevant, nor trustworthy source of information! see rather wikipedia!), longing for the great OC team, but the international atmosphere on the stage made me quite fast comfortable in my position as a listener ;)

I always loved the typical African singing voice which is for me so indescribable, and now I had an opportunity to listen to it. Though I heard less from it then I expected, it was still a marvelous event far beyond my expectations. His repertoire listed mainly traditional African songs and I would say Latino type of music.

The problem on the Jazz concerts in Bratislava is mainly that you have to sit. And this concert was definitely for dancing your soul out. That's why I say I was torn apart. Should I enjoy the well positioned tones following each other by solving their mystery or let my body flow with it. I lost to my natural desire very quickly an was hard to handle in my chair, though as usual most of the audience bewared a calm had. But the clapping, screaming, whispering in the background broke through and 30 minutes before the end of the concert the whole place was clapping and singing "sen sen sen"... so much that Mr Bona and his band stopped playing for around 2 minutes and made the audience enjoy themselves.

He is a great entertainer. He put a lot of great jokes in his concert and made us laugh a lot of times. Like "only women over 40 should sing now"... silence ... "oooh, when you are over 40 in Bratislava your finished" :)

He also gave a solo to his percussionist from Colombia, to have a solo. Amazing.

At the end of the concert there was a 3 minute long standing ovation, one song where the audience had to stand, and should dance... but that was already to much for this type of people... anyway the mood was good and after another 3 minutes of clapping it was said to us, that there is going to be no more music. Central European people don't complain after this. Used to the fact, that the end, means the end, and so the people where slowly moving on.

All in all I was moving all the time in my chair, one of the best concerts of my life, hope to have a good Latino party on Friday ;)

"Emotional security" or when things change

I'm very sad in the last weeks, cause I lost a point I could lean on emotionally. I believe that most of the people have habits they don't give up, because they are used to it and feel secure doing/experiencing them. Such habits, moments can relate to experiencing the same situation for a long time, or just a few moments which carved themselves in our minds. Some of the situations I value: is a shower with hot (not boiling) water on my skin, as I used to go to the thermal baths quite often in my childhood - this brings quite pleasant memories back. Or simply sitting before the computer and hearing music which is in harmony with my feelings. This is more like a dull feeling of comfort. A feeling of something I know and am sure, that nothing can surprise me or hurt me when I do it.

I lost such a secure point in my life this year. After so much talk about climate change and such this year I finally admitted that it can be true. The second sunny warm winter in the south of Slovakia. How sad for me. If you live your whole life with four seasons than you can't really imagine, how could it be without one of them, how could it change. And now it is here. While the spring is still full of the birth of life - bloom, animals appear, the summer is hot as always - giving the feeling of freedom and joy, the autumn amazes me with all its color and gifts I miss the winter. I miss the snow.

The nature died this year also. The trees lost their leaves, the flowers disappeared as most of the birds and animals, but the country didn't disappear before my eyes under a white layer of snow. Except of x-mas and New Years Eve there was no snow or snowing around. I miss the feeling from my childhood, when I made snowballs, enjoyed the falling snowflakes.
I shouldn't romanticize the memories too much. But the though of snow comforted me. And this feeling is missing this year. If I would go into the wiccan believe - though the sun was killed in autumn this year again, his body was never buried. The cycle of life lost from it's beauty.

I want to see real winter in my hometown again.

The Plains - Petőfi Sándor

I have the feeling that most of the people I know from my hometown and surroundings, with whom I was going into grammar and high-school have something in common. We love the place we are living. It is nothing special, I believe most of the people feel the same about their hometown and the places around it.
I won't go deep into the talk about why I feel so, cause it isn't anything you can describe, I rather put here a poem of a Hungarian poet. I won't translate the whole poem, just the phrases I had to learn in school and are still sometimes flying in my mind - cause I feel that way. It's quite a hard text to translate.

1.verse:
What are you for me, grim pine-grove lands,
Wilderness of the Carpathian Mountains
Though I admire you, but I don't love you,
And my thoughts don't wander in your valleys

2.verse:
Down on the plains, flat as the sea,
There I feel at home, there's my world
I'm like an eagle which escaped from his prison
When I see the never ending fields.

3.verse
Then my mind flies up
Above the ground near the clouds,
With the smile of the fields
From the Danube to the Tisza .

Last verse:
You are beautiful, plains, at least beautiful for me!
Here was my cradle slewed, I was born here.
Here should the shroud burrow my face, here
should my grave round up above me.


Az Alföld - Petőfi Sándor

Mit nekem te zordon Kárpátoknak
Fenyvesekkel vadregényes tája!
Tán csodállak, ámde nem szeretlek,
S képzetem hegyvölgyedet nem járja.

Lenn az alföld tengersík vidékin
Ott vagyok honn, ott az én világom;
Börtönébõl szabadúlt sas lelkem,
Ha a rónák végtelenjét látom.

Felröpûlök ekkor gondolatban
Túl a földön felhõk közelébe,
S mosolyogva néz rám a Dunától
A Tiszáig nyúló róna képe.

Délibábos ég alatt kolompol
Kis-Kunságnak száz kövér gulyája;
Deleléskor hosszu gémü kútnál
Széles vályu kettõs ága várja.

Méneseknek nyargaló futása
Zúg a szélben, körmeik dobognak,
S a csikósok kurjantása hallik
S pattogása hangos ostoroknak.

A tanyáknál szellõk lágy ölében
Ringatózik a kalászos búza,
S a smaragdnak eleven szinével
A környéket vígan koszorúzza.

Idejárnak szomszéd nádasokból
A vadlúdak esti szürkületben,
És ijedve kelnek légi útra,
Hogyha a nád a széltõl meglebben.

A tanyákon túl a puszta mélyén
Áll magányos, dõlt kéményü csárda;
Látogatják a szomjas betyárok,
Kecskemétre menvén a vásárra.

A csárdánál törpe nyárfaerdõ
Sárgul a királydinnyés homokban;
Odafészkel a visító vércse,
Gyermekektõl nem háborgatottan.

Ott tenyészik a bús árvalyányhaj
S kék virága a szamárkenyérnek;
Hûs tövéhez déli nap hevében
Megpihenni tarka gyíkok térnek.

Messze, hol az ég a földet éri,
A homályból kék gyümölcsfák orma
Néz, s megettök, mint halvány ködoszlop,
Egy-egy város templomának tornya. –

Szép vagy, alföld, legalább nekem szép!
Itt ringatták bölcsõm, itt születtem.
Itt borúljon rám a szemfödél, itt
Domborodjék a sir is fölöttem.

Going insane

Today I had an unusual experience. I though I was hallucinating. I thought I'm going slowly crazy. But I wouldn't mind, if it would happen this way.
I was sitting in the crowded bus no. 39. people were talking around me and the bus was slowly clattering. Noise smog - I thing this is how modern people call this. And then I felt like an angel was next to me and that nobody is experiencing the same feeling. People were chatting before me, on my right side a girl was sitting calmly and on my right a Walkman was all that is worth to mention. And in this familiar though disturbing surrounding I was hearing snatches of an angel singing. Every few seconds I heard it again. Before me people talking, around me no change. I could not figure out where the voices come from, but was astonished.
After a few minutes of listening to the voice and the people before me I figured out, that the lady next to the window was singing. The experience for me was more than pleasant. It trow me out of everyday troubles and let me fly for a few moments.
I was playing an imagined piano in my head to her voice, till she stopped. I was enjoying the moment till it faded away from my memories. I am sad, that I can't remember.
I have experienced my love to a beautiful woman voice again.

LGT

After a nice trip to Budapest with some British guys we met in the train, I slowly got to the Sziget. Well, I'm sure it will be a hell of a week there, and would like to be there to, but no money no fun + I'm working during the week. But anyway the concert was awesome, tough with a lot of difficulties...
Basically when we bordered the train to Budapest, it was full. Well not as full as the trains on a Sunday during the school year, but it was full. A lot of people with backpacks were going to the Sziget, most of them speaking English in the train, I just happened to talk to a girl from the Netherlands and then we (I went there with my brother) got a sitting place with 3 guys from Great Britain.
After some side stories we went to the Sziget... got there, check-in went superb, no real waiting time :)
Inside a lot of foreign people. In the evening a lot of parties, good mood, smiling faces, small groups playing guitar (Oasis - Wonderwall) . We went up 14 meters on a tower, and looked around, before me 2 discos, behind a life concert (though amateurs) and drunk happy people cruising around - it was around 2:15 :)

Getting back to the concert. I learned some lessons: don't go with people, who don't have the same mindset, it can spoil a lot, even if you like those ppl... I like to be in the first rows - they don't; I wanted to buy a shirt before the concert to have something remembering me this concert... well I had the feeling at 0:30 that we will miss it... we didn't, but I was quite nervous about that...

About the concert - first the problems, then the things I want to remember:

• 3-5 times happened, that a "bass-wave" was coming from the speakers (I hope you understand what I mean, if not, give a note, I will find it out what it's called)
• A helicopter pissed up one whole song, by cruising above the stage... Though after the song Presser told us to wink at them to go away, but the one guy showing his middle finger in the audience made the difference (to see just one middle finger from around 200 hands is quite acceptable I think)...
• I missed though a stage performance they were promising, it was well, but I saw in my mind a more colorful performance
• Nothing else really bothered me... and this was max 3% of the concert.

So lets get to the thinks worth to mention!!!

• according to the organizers 50.000 people were at that concert
• age of the fans was in average I think 35-40, I believe there was somebody from every generation!
• one of the most interesting instruments I have seen in my life (something between a trumpet and a violin, which you play like a violin...)
• the audience... singing the songs of the classics was great. LGT has been listening to the audience singing one of their whole song, without playing anything - well thats quite luxurious :)
• the improvisation parts were nice, and some new feats, they tried to play Boksz with an electric guitar using a distorter. The monotone parts were quite dull, as it was overlaping all other instrument, but when they started to play the instrumental part as a duo with a normal guitar, it gave a much better sounding, then the original song
  
• the timing - exactly when I said, that there should have been a change into a more powerful song they had played it
• that I knew all the songs and most of the texts also, well I have been listening to them the last month... (and that I couldn't here myself singing, cause it had to be horrible (with my voice...), I have spoiled the night for a few ppl :))
  
• The amazing drum solos at the break, when the band was going down between the ppl (also one of the worst parts of the concert, as I couldn't see them, just on the screen).
• And of course a nice ending, seeing all four musicians behind the piano, singing Szól a rádió (The radio talks), the audience singing with them as the whole last hour and you see and here Presser fighting with his tears...

I had a great time, miss the people I used to go to such concerts with, but thank you for showing me the beauty of them. And looking forward for the next great concert.


...Nagyon jó ez a repülés, ez a távoli ragyogás!
Nagyot bámul a vasutas!
Felszállás, éjszakai vonatozás!
LGT - Éjszakai vonatozás

The fight between good and evil

We live in dark times. You never know what could happen to you and when. You never know what the person next to you thinks. Everyone is suspicious, everyone can be the bad guy.

Or story happened ones in Bratislava... It was an unusual warm summer day when you sweat till you have water in your body. The people where happy anyway. They didn't know, didn't care what will happen. They though it was only a regular day, with a small festival called Junifest, where beer was flowing like water. And we all know, that beer is one of the most dangerous drinks in the world, which can make ppl go crazy and do things, which can't be told out loud.
It was already past MIDNIGHT when the evils spark sprang into its victim. Some ppl noticed how is eyes started to be starry but they though it was just because of the beer. The waitress suspected the least, and it was a horrible mistake from her to not take it away earlier. And so the inevitable finally happened. A litter jug slowly slipped into the backpack, the devil himself smiled in hell. But he still could make a move to make our antihero suffer for his mistake... there where 2 guards at the door, who just a second ago controlled every bag!
It happened as it should in all stories with drunk people in it. He has chosen the time to live so, that the guards didn't give a damn. Phuh... said or antihero, when he noticed that another guard is standing at the gate just a floor lower. When he learned something in life (and from a lot of managers) then it is, that if you want to make a good expression, make the things they want you to do even before asking... So he opened his bag and showed it the guard. The guard looked into it quickly saw a jacket in it and didn't care anymore. Freedom!
I will be feeling always guilty when I will drink from this glass. Thats my penalty from life. And I'm 99% sure, that I won't do it again.

Take care!

Reclaimer: In Slovakia it is NOT a normal thing to steal!!! If I wouldn't be drunk I would think about that, as it is a beautiful peace of art, and I have in my room just a 0.5l glass, and to buy one is quite expensive. But I really wouldn't have taken it!

Missed a concert, met a friend

Last weekend I went to BP (Budapest), Hungary. I wanted to go there for the concert of Roger Waters, but I couldn't get the tickets in time :( Sorry Luki, I tried my best. At least now I have a communication system for Budapest.
As I was at least able to arrange accodomation I said to myself that I will go anyway.
The way there was typical like me: 1. went home from BA (Bratislava), as I had to deliver a bill to my father. Took my sleeping bag also, so when I go back to BA to catch the train to BP I don't have to get back to my room. Of course I realized only at home, thatI forgot to take my money with me, which was also in BA. So I went back in the morning, to get the money, but then again I forgot my sleeping bag there...

On the train I was talking to a guy who just came back from France from a conference. He is working on minority problems. Well this topic is quite interesting for me, as basically I'm in a minority... (Hungarian in Slovakia). But I think I will have a Post specially for this topic.

Anyway. Had a nice chat with him for an hour. And after that Tamas came for me on the station. Brought me to his home. Quite nice place. We were talikng the whole night through. Sharing electronic information and a lot of stories. Haven't seen him for 2 years.

So the next day I went met with my cousin in BP for lunch. Haven't talked to him for ages, also. And then I went home.

The interesting part of sunday was when I saw a movie I took with me from BP. It's called What The Bleep Do We Know About The World. It was a movie that gave me a new view on thing. Some of the thoughts which stayed on my mind are:
Everyone is addicted to fellings, which then inspire their behaviour.
You create your surronding.
Are you strong enough to make a change in yourself? Can you bear the loss which could come with it? Like loosing some of your best friends because maybe they cant come along with the person you have become?
Unity.
You can become God if you get aware.
There where some more... though I cant remember. Will maybe write a post about this also. Anyway, some of these sentences are taken out of the context... like the God one... so dont interpret to much into it.

So long.

new PC

Finally!!! After comparing a lot of hardware components I finally made up with a quite fine new PC for 15.000 Skk (1Euro -> 34 Skk, around 450 Eur). For those who understand:
Intel Core 2 Duo E6300 1.8GHz BOX 775 2MB dual
ASUS P5ND2 SE
CORSAIR DDR2 1GB 667MHz
ASUS GeForce EN7600GT 256MB HTDI PCX

I wanted originally a an MSI GeForce, but they had none. :(
So now I have almost have a functional PC...
1. problem RAM is not fully enabled - uses it only on 553Mhz and not on 667Mhz, which is quite annoying...
2. had some problems with installation because I put the two CD drives above eachother, the DVD player didn't read the CDs properly... After I unplugged the CD drive it works fine.

The graphical capacity is enormous I think. So now I'm trying to get some games where I can try out the graphical capacity - like Oblivion :).

A day after the day after... Bad luck

The only thing important for today is that I wrote and successfully saved my homework, when a half an hour after that my PC crushed. I was watching a movie, and the pic/sound stopped suddenly. I turned off the PC, but when I turned it on again the leds were OK, but the monitor didn't start. I have taken the PC apart (BIOS reset, taken out all the drives/RAMs/cards as used to in DELL through the phone, when I worked there) but the same problem - PC starts, power on and working signals shine on the front, no beep code or anything. I think my mobo (mother board) is defect. Yipee, just 4 months ago I had to replace my power supply... Will have to get a new PC from home :( All my progs gone, have to reinst everything now. I had a fully functioning system (except the SQL database :P). This will take me a days work to get a system like I had before. Installing Win and Linux + applications... Thank God I at least have all the progs on my external hdd, and there is no important data I could recall which went lost for the next 2 weeks. The only thing that bothers me is the dictionairy and the apache server :) So I don't have a place to learn php further on.

Wish me luck, so I get a functioning PC soon.

National Carrier Days 2007

I was last friday on the national carrier days. Was quite an action! Haven't had so much fun since the last one two years ago, when I was going around with Luky and Chudou. That time all tree of us had a bit different preferences though somehow related :) That time I've got the most pens and cups :) And it was quite a fun to go around.

I like to go on the NCD mostly because I know the OC and so I always find 10-15 to greet and talk to... and I always sweer at least to 3 of them that I will come for sure :)

In the last years I usually presented also AIESEC for the ppl coming, but not this year. I came quite late (1 1/2 hours before the end). But I think I made the best of the few mins that were available. I was making one round around, to see which companies are here. Of course because I was already a few times on NCD I knew most of them, though the OC made a great job now, and there where a lot of new companies. I was going around the companies, which could offer me a potential job (web developer: XHTML, CSS, PHP). And found some interesting offers. Some of them I'm sure I can't work at now, but in my eyes they won on value. So I will try to focus on those places (of course just 2-3 companies).

I also was at a consulting company who gave me a paper with some database questions. It was of course a lottery paper for the ppl, who give a solution can win a new mobile phone. I was quite nervous as it came suddenly and then met some friends so I couldn't give the paper back. Of course afterwards my couriosity led me to fill out the paper when I got down. Wasn't that hard, I was just suprised, as in school we solve different type of questions.

Then I met a schoolmate from high school, whom I haven't seen for ages. I was quite lucky, that she came with a car, so she took me home (right before my house) as we live in the same city. It was fine to speek with her a few hours. This way I send her my greetings and wish good luck for her tasks. :)

I won't bore you further on, as I use this blog for a diary and not to write some funny stories...

Take care :)