Looking back at my birthday

I had on 10. june my birthday, so almost a month ago, and it was one that at first assured me in how I imagine my place in this universe.

I wanted to meet a few friends during the Junifest (where I had stolen the 1 liter jug). I have told the most of them already a month ago, that I want to go. I was really looking forward to it as a small child. Except of Sebastian, nobody came. Though in his place it seemed, that he camed because his friends, with whom he also planned to come here.
So the first bad experience was, that basically noone came. To make it even worse the only guy who did come was sitting at a different table, and going away without changing a word with me. That was a quite disappointing experience. And what pissed me up even more was the fact, when on sunday (I wanted to meet them 2 days before my birthday) I became a msg from Sebastian that he wishes me everzthing best on my birthday after ignoring me completly on friday and not using the chance to congratulate me personally. So basically all that I have planned for that day went up in smoke (A füstbe ment terv) .

But our story does not end here. It would, if I would be so pessimistic, as I try to be usually, but I tried to figure out why it went so bad... I was searching for the good things around these happenings. And there are a lot of them.

On wednesday I was calling Erika, who is a girl that has to many things on her mind, and wants to be everywhere, if she remembers the meeting she was promising me on friday... of course she forgot. Annoying. Anyway what happened afterwards was, that when we met on friday she didn't sleep for 2 days (parties to celebrate her bachelor degree and her moving out of the dormitories). We met at around 2 p.m I think. She was falling asleep on the bench, and was telling that she is in hurry cause she wants to meet a friend who she can't meet during the summer anymore.
It took me time to inderstand, that she has really taken the time, even though she needed it herself to be also with me. It took me time to understand because of the circumstances and her character, that this was a great gift. Thank you!

The second such gift came from Laci, who wanted to come up to Bratislava, just to see me and then leave in the evening. Loosing a few hours of his life just by traveling.
I then agreed with him, that I will call my old friends from high school (in Slovakia it is called also gymnasium!) to meet up at the next weekend at a near sea to have a picnic. I have called a lot of people to go, and at the end I have decided to go somewhere else. It was a family problem, I think I will talk about that also in a blog.
But I told my friends via sms, to meet up in the end in a small pub at around 20:00, if somebody is interested, then send me a sms. I got one sms, from a good friend, Zümi, who told me he wants to meet up... This was at around 20:30. I was quite disappointed again, cause I just got one sms.

Anyway, Zümi was called by Csongi, who told him that ppl are already at the pub, which I have suggested, and if they want to go also, thats how I got to know that actually ppl are waiting for me at the pub, and that was quite surprising! As we arrived many of them had to leave already. So they stayed another 30 min and then left.

It is a good feeling, that I have ppl I can influence meeting up, and I have ppl caring about me in my surronding. Not many, but there are some. And that gives me a bit selfconfidence.

PS: I was talking to Sebastian afterwards, he said on beerfest like the Octoberfest in Germany it is quite common to just go to one table and knock on it which is like saying hello to everybody.
2. thing I got to know from Sebastian was, that it is said in Germany, that when you congratulate somebody before his birthday, then it brings misfortune.
...cultural differences :)

PS2: and I wanted to thank everybody who cheared me up on my birthday and wished me all the best